Spring To-Do List
Because the warmer days can't come soon enough
March is always a month that feels like it goes on forever as we’re on the precipice of spring. I truly cannot wait to leave this winter behind, it’s been an incredibly hard season with the death of my dad and the unexpected loss of my childhood home. I try not to wish time away but it feels ok to do it this year. Spring is probably my favourite season, there is so much to be excited about so here’s a little spring to-do list.
Gardening
Last year, I really found my feet in the garden after feeling so overwhelmed when we moved into our house. I’ve learnt so much over the last couple of years and it’s been invaluable and now I’ve got some experience it’s made me so excited for this gardening season. I never quite understood why gardening is cited as something that’s so good for your mental health but it truly has been life changing for me.
Decluttering
When we emptied out my dads house it meant a lot of things made their way over to me and sorting everything out has been quite the task. When he died my brain decided that it wanted me to get rid of all my personal possessions which seems like a very weird thing for it to do. That’s the thing about fresh, raw grief it is weird and it doesn’t ever make logical sense when you look back on it. Thankfully, I did decide that getting rid of my all my personal possessions wasn’t something that I really wanted to do but I have been having a good old sort out and it’s been super therapeutic for my brain.
Personal Work
For the last few years my personal work has took a real hit. Working so much on Instagram and visually for my clients has made me want to put down my phone and screens in my spare time but I’m slowly figuring out a balance. I treated myself to a smaller camera as I was struggling with the size and weight of my Fuji and carrying it on walks so now I’ve got something smaller than is much easier to take on the go. Not only do I want to do more with my personal photography but I’d like to utilise my online spaces more.
No More Rotting
In the very first post I wrote here I said I didn’t want to spend the year rotting. Now I’ve had some time to settle into a new normal without my dad and the huge hole his passing has left in my life I feel ok day to day. I’ve spent the past couple of months in therapy and it’s made such a big difference to how I feel. Sometimes I certainly don’t feel amazing but each day it gets a tiny bit easier on my brain. This year will be a year very much about healing and focusing on doing everything I can to lead a life well lived.
Embracing the Season
Winter was long, soggy and frankly awful but with the promise of a fresh season ahead of me and I really can’t wait. Am I looking a British spring through rose tinted glasses? Absolutely. But, now I feel so much mentally clearer I feel ready to move forward whatever spring might bring.
Rebecca x
